This will be a short post. I am just trying to get the creative juices flowing again.
The past 2-3 weeks we have been knee deep in house repairs. I have spent a lot of hours working on installing a floor, some faucets, painting, etc.. I'm also in the middle of a seminary class which is a little tougher than I originally planned. In the midst of all this I've found that my walk with God hasn't been as consistent and with that comes a lack of the fruits that come with it. One of the lies I think we all struggle with is "I'm not really that significant" or I wish I could be as significant/accomplished as that person. Well when my walk with God is slow this lie really tends to creep up in my mind. It really fleshed out last night as I was sitting on the floor for the 5th or 7th night in a row trying to get one more piece of laminate to click in and in my frustration decided to avoid the task at hand and check out social media (also another way to feel less significant). As I looked and was bombarded by everyone else's cool life and seeing them way more fit than me and then I began to think about how much more information most of the people at seminary class probably knew than I did and that lead to me question: " Am I really even significant?" Am I really as cool, smart, in shape, etc. as those people? An overwhelming feeling insignificance creeped in and I looked at the floor and just felt defeated. In this moment I had a few options. 1. I could resolve to be more significant and prove that voice wrong by working harder, eating less, working out, reading more, etc. 2. I could avoid the feeling and just tell myself "oh their lives aren't really that great and those other students aren't as funny, or nice as I am anyways" 3. I could question where am I finding my significance and look to the Lord with it.
In reality what I was facing was my pride. In that moment I couldn't come up with a reason to make myself feel better than others and therefor it lead to despair. Thankfully the Lord allowed me to see this sin and that I was basing my significance off of temporal things and not eternal things. In Colossians 3:2 Paul tells us to "place our mind on things above not on earthly things" The longer I left my mind one earthly things the more my pride led me to despair. In the midst of all this I was able to begin to repent and ask God to allow me to find my significance in the Cross. At the cross we are completely insignificant and ultimately significant at the same time. At the cross we realize our failures and shortcomings and are faced with the reality that in God's love he died for us. My significance will never be in myself and the longer I try to find it myself the deeper my despair or higher my pride will be. If I begin to find my significance in Christ I can always rest in that. Christ tells us in Matthew 11:30 "My Burden is light and My yoke is easy". This is always a good test in regards to our identity if we are resting in Christ and our identity in Him we can agree with Him that his burden is light and easy.
If you are struggling with feeling insignificant, first come to grips with the fact that without Christ we will always fall short because of our sinful nature and then, go to Christ with your burden and give it to Him. Read the word and find promises that are true because God says them. Quit trying to outwork the lie that your not significant because you will never prove it wrong.
Where do you most hear the lie of insignificance? (Comment below)